i wish you would look at me and smile; one little smile, and i'd be gone forever. forever would be where i'd waste my time, wasting time. and we'd fall together. i wish you would look at me and smile. then would i look at my feet and not into your eyes? the floor will see me smile again then you'll walk all over it; further and further away from me and my smile. it's all my fault. don't ask me how great i am. i'd tell you how great it would be. anything else is not this real. i wish i could paint you red, only darker. these words wouldn't make any sense, if you weren't all that i've left. (so ashamed) that you're only a minute behind, if you look at it my way. like when i was you, and you were me, but "not really". i'm only behind in your eyes because you don't know how to take it i'm only behind in your eyes because you don't know what it means to be loved. i knew you'd understand me.